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Bored and instead of sleeping like a normal person I decided to rummage through my high school stuff (why is beyond me right now) and I found my freshman letter….that I never opened. Every freshman in my class had to right a letter to their graduating selves for what reason idk but I did it at the time thinking it would be cool and by the time I was graduating I hated that place so much that I had no care for what that letter had to say to me….but for some reason I didn’t throw it out and kept it amongst other meaningless things like my high school yearbook *cringes*. Well tonight I decided to open it and read it and it just made me wish I could teleport back to that day and prepare myself for what I was about to experience. I know I could’ve used it. I thought it’d be cool to write back to 14 year old me so instead of writing it on something tangible like paper that my parents can find and read I decided to leave it here on Tumblr where they are too technologically inept to find my thoughts….here goes nothing I guess…
Dear 14 year old me,
We’re gonna play a quick game of catch up. A lot happened in 5 years. Most of which you won’t believe cause you’re stubborn and you don’t like to listen to people….don’t worry you’re still like that….well less like that but it still creeps up from time to time. Get ready…this is not the bumpy ride you expected. First off STFU ABOUT THAT GIRL YOU’RE DATING!! Sorry lil’ homie but she dumps you before the year is even out. Yea I know you two “love each other” but remember that Jason kid she has honors English with….yea she has a thing for him and dumps you for him. Don’t worry she doesn’t actually get with him, he doesn’t like her at all. You feel like it’s the end of the world but trust me…you find someone better…or so you think. So yea freshman year you fuck up bad with grades. You start playing ice hockey, which you are terrible at by the way, and you get dumped by the girl you spent 2 and a half years of your life with…yes things look bleak. HAVE NO FEAR THOUGH SOPHMORE YEAR IS ANOTHER CHANCE…..to have a bad year. You find another girl who you adore and who treats you like no one else…..by that I mean she cheats on you, dumps you the day after Christmas, (you gave her the present like a jackass anyways…..you’re so fucking stupid sometimes I swear), you get diagnosed with Attention Deficit Disorder and royally fuck yourself with school this year, OH BUT WAIT YOU HAVE FRIENDS….no just kidding remember your cousin Alissa? Yea she kinda turns all of your friends against you after you dated her best friend who I mentioned earlier….you got better at hockey though!!….not too excited? It’s okay now is where it gets better I promise bud. Junior year!! SANDRO’S REDEMPTION BEGINS!!! Guess what big shot?! JV hockey say buh bye you’ve gotten so much better Kauffman notices you. Yea tryouts you knocked Brock Lewis on his ass in front of the entire varsity team. Oh yea and that asshole Mike Maffei who always picks on you and calls you spic and Mexican and beaner? You get into a fight with him in the locker room and fuck him up. One punch busts open the bridge of his nose and had it not been for Chavez stopping you, you would’ve kept going. Yea you get to play with the big boys now get excited!! As for school you’re doing so well!! A’s and B’s my nigga you are the student you never dreamed you could be. Sorry but girls are still your area of issue. You just have this knack for dating girls who cheat on you idk what your problem is still don’t sorry bud. One girl specifically though you keep running back to. She has a terrible reputation and she’s friends with your ex from freshman year but you brush off those HUGE warning signs and get hurt on multiple occasions. The last occasion is when she says she’s not ready to date you….and hooks up with your best friend hours later…..yes he knows you two are talking….no he doesn’t apologize….yes he dates her. You get and lose your first job this year (Don’t worry it was such a shit job you hate it so much and once Alex leaves you don’t even pretend to enjoy it anymore) Twist of events though…you’re dancing now! What you? Dancing? Yea bro Rhythm Jrs. and RDT….don’t get too excited though you kinda super suck ass….just like when you first started with hockey… you get better though don’t worry. Senior Year is here!!! AP classes what?! UFPx Season 1 (note the team you always dreamed on being which was formally known as Fr3sh)!!!!! You meet awesome people that you are friends with to this day! You stopped playing hockey though. The racism got too much for you. As stubborn as you were you just didn’t want to be apart of that world anymore. You like dance a lot more. You actually love it. Don’t be too sad…things happen for a reason. You meet a girl too!! She is actually a freshman but as childish as she is she is equally mature and wise beyond her years. She’s a lot like you…stubborn, ill-tempered, loud, and says whatever she has on her mind. It gets weird….spoiler alert…you don’t live happily ever after. No she doesn’t actually cheat on you because you never actually date….she’s afraid of losing you once you go off and become a college kid so she’d rather not have had you in the first place….crazy right? Who would’ve thought someone could care that much about you? Trust me she did care. She was vulnerable around you and that is more most people who were friends with her could say. You graduate with a 3.0 gpa, get into Kean University (Don’t have to take any placement tests cause of your SAT scores whaaaaat?), Montclair University, and Seton Hall!!!, the summer starts and guess who makes it onto UFP Company? You man! You bust your ass and you get what you wanted so badly. You survived high school!! It sucked but you needed this to grow as a person and to live the life you live now? College? That’ll be a story real world adult Sandro will have to tell college Sandro to tell you. I’m still writing that story. It’s equally as rough as high school was but in different ways….and not so different ways. For the most part though things are looking up and you’re pretty much happy. That depression shit….yea you squashed that monster like a bug. Be damn proud of it cause lemme tell you it really fucks you up come college time. I’m getting ahead of myself though. Let’s just say that you’re doing alright. Nothing to be scared or anxious or nervous about. Things happened and life went on. That’s how the world works you’ll find out soon enough. Yea well college you needs to be up early for an audition in the city so this is where I’ll end this tale….yea you do that now….yea you still hate the city but that’s how much you love dance. You spend most of your free time in NY so get used to it….as you know I’m no good with ending things so I guess no good byes…just see ya later….
I did absolutely nothing today. What a waste of a free day. Kind of mad at myself for not being even remotely productive.
Be happy. Please. Just be happy. I’m not the best friend but I try. I honestly just want to see you happy. You deserve to smile all the time. I may never say it but I look up to you now. You persevered and turned shit around. Yea maybe not everything but you turned a lot of the bad into good. Regardless of whether what I said and did helped you did this on your own and I’m proud of you. Now I just want you to be happy too. Sucks being strong and mad or sad all of the time trust me I know. Smile….you’ll feel better.
Now what do I do? Blah.
No dean’s list, no scholarship, no internship….the odds are not in my favor for this audition *sigh* here goes nothing I guess….
Can’t wait to take class next week. I miss it so much.